Here is a video that I did not know existed—again, from a conference held at a small church in the middle of nowhere in Pennsylvania in June of 2009, during the most emotionally traumatic period of my life.

The audio of this address is so bad that I was about a millimeter away from telling Rodney, "We can't publish this." It isn't Rodney's fault. Jean Douglas recorded this at a distance of about ten feet, without a label microphone, in an echoey church; the acoustics and the recording system were inadequate. So why publish? Because I feel this is FAIRLY audible, and that there is spiritual value here. In considering the audience (you), I know how desperately you want truth, and that you will fight to hear this message. This is why I have decided to publish. I think the fight will be worth it.

I, on the other hand, couldn't handle watching it. I am too obsessed about quality audio and so it drove me crazy. But again, I have the most hardcore, truth-seeking audience there is, and if it were anyone but you, I wouldn't publish. But I did poke through it and I can tell that there is much spiritual value here. You're just going to have to work for it. Like everything else, really.

Thank you for your contributions to this work which, as you can see and as you know, has been going on for many years; 33 years to be exact. Rodney said, concerning this video, "You look like a kid." I guess that's true. I didn't feel like that, though. I was wishing during this time that I were dead. But because God showed no interest at all in killing me, I figured I might as well push back against the pain of my wife's abandonment of me and her breaking of her wedding vow by throwing myself completely at the work. As I have told you before, the work has saved me many times. It still saves me every day.

From the capital of Peru,

---Martin